I want to first and foremost thank those that have been reading and sharing the content that I have been writing. It is noticed and means a lot to someone like me.
So it has been 14 months since I last posted and boy oh boy how things have changed for the better. They say that if you want better, you have to do better, and well, they are right. I have now been sober for just about 19 months. Let me tell you, this is something that is not an easy task because my default was always “get high and numb the feelings”. Yet, today, I no longer have to do that, and I enjoy feeling my feelings.
In the past couple of months I have lost some really good friends to this disease. One of them was a brother to me, we were friends for over 20 years and had been through a lot together. I did not cry for the loss. Instead, I thanked God for ending his struggle and giving him a chance to be in peace. I know his family won’t understand it, my way of thinking. I mean, death, to me, is just a process of life. People die, It has always been the process and it won’t change. Some are taken before they have had the chance to live a full life, but it was their time. Others, live full lives and just can’t continue on. Either way, it shouldn’t be something to cry over. There is a deeper meaning to it under the surface of just life and death. Before you cry, I challenge you to analyze that part of what has happened. You may find that it is the deeper meaning that will make you smile instead of frown. It is the deeper meaning that will make you say “until we meet again” instead of “goodbye”.
All in all, I think that those that pass on, still live on, they are just looking over us and looking out for us. There may not be much truth of that for those that aren’t looking or listening. It really does have a funny way of showing itself. Open yours eyes a little wider, listen to the words spoken to you to understand them on a deeper level. I promise that you will be surprised at how many signs you actually see. Have you ever taken a loss and just put that loss in the “L” column and just left it there? I bet you, if you pull up that loss column and really look at it, every negative had a way more beautifully positive outcome to it. You just had to take that loss to appreciate the win that you were about to receive.
Until next time…Jay
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